its been a long time huh...
briefly...
ive submit my thesis viva on june 2007...
lookout for jobs...went for interviews...
luckily...i got a job...a real job...
the news was on june...
but ive been pending for not having degree scroll...
so after 15th august..ive been processed...again...
on 11th oct...got da offer letter...
this morning..ill registered as a lecturer..alhamdulillah...
my mom made pulut kuning..tunai nazar ayah...
ermm..wth im doing here in this early mrning???
huhuh...the fact is i cant sleep for coughing so badly..
had a vomitting in series..huhuh
ermm...demam dpt keje kot..

btw...while i was in pending period ..ive been a tuition teacher...
a physic teacher..huhuh..
gheee....physic is always fascinating n inspiring...
doing spm revision made me realize...
if only i could turn back time...ill get A1 for physic..heheh...
dah xleh tu..xleh jela..nak putar masa konon..huhuh..
kinda sad to leave the students...
more horrible coz i didnt have the chance to say goodbye...
because of this sudden offer letter...
hoping that theyll do well in da exam..
if only the knew how easy the spm..huhuh..
buat je latihan bnyk2....xyah study sgt...dah berkali cikgu cakap...

oh ye...im also doing notes n assignments for oum students
menyampah gak bile dipkkan...sbb menolong org yg xde ati nak blajo..tp nk gak degree....
lantak komela..aku dpt duit n dpt ilmu...
hangpa dpt ape..juz a piece of paper..huhuh..
membebel pun..aku buat jgk..heheh..

k...til next time..daaa...

ermmm...today, while i was updating my to do list...
i realized that i have so..so many things to finish up..
hardly to breath rite now...
quite depressing at this moment...
is it because i`m a lazy person or i`m a slow motion in doing my job..
or is it because of suddenly i`m a wanted person to finish their job...
right now..feels like i`m having 3 bosses...

the 1st one is my beloved supervisof...Prof..
even though he is not supporting my financial anymore...
but we are still related to each other...
why?
because i`m not settle with my viva yet..
n i owe him 2 papers...1 international journal..n another for asia conference paper
then...i was responsible for 2 grants that we proposed earlier...which those might be my supported grant for my phd study (if i really further my study)
n since i`m still around..sometimes i was asked to help few documentation stuffs...
well..i`m an ex-worker but still feels like i`m still work with him...

the 2nd one..is my ex bos...
i like her...because we didn`t really like a bos n staff..
she is like a friend to me..
coz we share a lot of stories..huhuh..
i like to do his works...n a lot of knowledge to gain...
during this 3 months..i have 2 types of lab...
and about 6 articles to be edited...including grant reports..
well...i think..if i was just concentrated my job with her...
there will be no probs..
but since i was loaded  with oum stuffs...
my RA job was distracted with my tuition jobs and not forgotton some stuffs from sv..
so my head is spinning with a lot of task at once...
it was just about my management skills...can`t blame the situation...
well...i`ve finish my contract with my 2nd boss...but still she just can`t let go of me..
she still wants me to translate one more report...n finish one more lab...
even though i`ve already wanted to sign a contract with another project...
all of it should be finished by this weekend...huhuhuh...
all that i afford to do now is just smile...
therefore... i have another week with my 2nd boss...

3rd boss is my a project leader of my new project..
i`m glad to come back to my previous school...
feels like home...
we`ve already discussed our project..n i need to do some bacteria growth to study the corrosion rate on metal plate..herrmmm...bio stuffs..
well i used to hate bio stuffs...
right now, i can`t afford to hate anything right now..
i`m willing to swallow everthing that i can get right now..
who knows it might be an interesting project..coz i never do a bio stuffs...
another good point is...i can develop some new knowledge...
n i can see that i can used both chem n material knowledge to do this project..
so..challenging n interesting..that`s all i can say right now..
i`ll be started by next week for 2 months...
but already got some articles to study before i started my work..
who knows...i might get another good job during this 2 months..
even though i can`t get the sallary that i wanted, glad that i can have the job..

so even though i`ll do another project...still feels like i`m having 3 bosses...
not included the bosses from my tuitions...huhuh..
ermm i don`t mind if i need to do a lot of works...coz i like to work...
it just..feels dizzy sometimes to fulfill the different people requirement at once..
i just need a job that i can concentrate only to it...that`s all..
someday..insyaallah..when i really have a real job...
 

ermm...
looks like that i have a lot of leisure time today...
even though there are a lot more to do for my lab today..huhuh..
well..i think i always being like this..
when i`m bz to do a lot of things..
my adrenaline made me to find some other job to do as an addition..
feels like i can do a lot of things..huhuh..

ok..about my wedding..
well i never plan to make any kind of wedding of the year theme..
just a simple ceremony...with all my relatives n friends care to join us..
n did not wasting so much of time n money...
we did`nt really fix a real date yet..but the earliest will be on august..
n the latest will be on december...
well i did not attend the marriage course yet..
it should be last week, but it was being cancelled for the last minute
for i was going to join the walk in interview at melaka...
ok...we didn`t buy anything yet...but he has the budget already...
but i`m not...huhuh...still trying to save a lot more money...
as i mentioned before...all the pelamin set n clothes will be sponsored..
so do the make up, n i think my father will have the budget for kenduri..
but still i need to allocate about 5k..that is my budget...
to buy brg antaran...
buying raw materials for bunga telur n gifts that will be made by my mother herself...
n another spare cost..
huhuh..i`m not sure if i can achieve the target on time..uhuks..

i didn`t really plan anything much yet...
all of this time...my mother keep telling me her ideas...
she really loves this stuffs...
n if i`m not agree with her...she will make a sad statement which i do not dare to argue...huhuh...
she wants me to be make up like my cousin when she was married...
oh noooo....i`m not sure how many layer of foundation sticked to her face skin...
i just like a simple make up but attractive..that`s all...
n still,i can`t argue more about that...do as you wish...mother...huhuh..
she wants to do the khatam quran ceremony...during my wedding..
is that necessary??
i don`t agree too much about this tradition ceremony anyway..
why do we need to show to other people that we can read quran very well...
as far that i`m concern,it`s not an important rules in islam to do that...
btw...i juz want to make a simple wedding...
why do we need to add some more plans that can make u more headache...
more things to be thinking of...
huhuh..until today..i leave it to my mother to make the plans...
but the decision should be discussed with me and my father..
n i know my father will always agree with me...heheh..
because usually his mind thinking just exactly like me...

well sometimes i`m hoping for miracles happen..
mebi i`ll get a good job in this short time...huhuh...
if i can save 1k for a month...that will be very nice..
i have a lot of opportunities in front of me...
the question is am i willing to take the risk...
plus that i`m still feeling like i want to wait..
arghhhhhhh...confuse of what to do...
do i really want to further my study?
coz i have a lot of offer in front of me right now..
juz waiting for the yes answer from me..
although i wanted to get a job..
well sometimes, we can`t have all the things that we dreamed of, right??